"We come to
love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person
perfectly."
white horse.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Just when everything has been going on smoothly, here comes the paranoia. As always. This has happened before, and it’s happening again. Daddy’s words are still vaguely remembered till today. “How sure can you be that this man will be your future? Will he be the one you’ll be spending your life with? What makes you think that he’ll be faithful to you?” These were the questions he once asked me when he first learnt about my first and foremost relationship with a boy. And little did I know that my dad had been right that time.
Now, when things are turning out way better than I expected, or deserved, part of me is still wondering. It’s not easy to find the “right one” these days, especially when there are too many jerks out there. Then why does my heart sometimes feels scared to accept the fact that the one with me right now is here to stay? Why does my mind continuously keep playing tricks on me, trying to make me suffer? Mummy always says that often, we try too hard that we don’t realize that it’s seeping through bit by bit. But sometimes we just don’t want to worry at all because we just don’t want to ruin the moment. And right now, I feel like I’m stucked in between. I don’t want my relationship to be a mundane one but on the other hand, I’m just afraid that if I overdo it, it might make things worse.
Many would say that I think too much. I think I’d agree to that. I told my Andik Imran about what’s been on my mind these days. And he knew exactly what I was talking about. “Just know that I love you lots. Love does not equate to the number of kisses or calls I give you, but what I am willing to go through for you. The shortfall of kisses and calls doesn’t mean I love you less.” See. That’s what I mean that Allah is The Almighty. And that I’m grateful for this priceless gift He has presented me in my life. And at the end of the day, i feel as gay as ever.
Amin. (:
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Natasha. a year older every June 15th. I'm currently pursuing my diploma in business applications in RP.
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Sunday, February 8, 2009